Ever wonder why I call myself Dragonfly Dreamer?

There is no doubt I love dragonflies and butterflies....my house is full of them! Not that I am really a ‘collector' of anything, but I am drawn to them. If there is a dragonfly on something, I will notice it! And people tend to give me things with dragonflies on them, my daughter in particular. Dragonflies are my totem animal and messengers. I see them everywhere, even in the most obscure locations.

Yesterday I saw one over the Indian ocean of all places! It was HOT, very hot in fact, so my family decided to go to the beach. There I was swimming around in the Ocean, when I saw a dragonfly flying from the open sea to shore, straight over the top of my head.

Then when I was leaving, as I walked in from the surf, there was a little dragonfly on the rocks. The little dragonfly just sat on the cool, damp, seaweed covered rock, and didn't fly off when I got near. It was quite small and had a lovely pale blue body, definitely not the same one that I saw earlier.

I don't know what it means, but I just had to write about this visitor.

Perhaps it signifies the time to come in from the cold and find a soft place to land.

I love little Elmo’s message about healthy eating…. ‘Cookies are a sometimes food.’ I think fear is a sometimes emotion. Fear is not ‘bad’ and in small doses it is useful….it shows us to be weary of things that might hurt us and helps us run faster if we need to get out of danger. But when we live in constant fear, when fear is a daily companion, we get out of balance.
I know fear all too well, I lived in constant fear for years. Throughout my life I have had a lot to fear, many life threatening events where I was in mortal danger and fear helped me to run faster and think quicker. But then it took over and began to see danger where there was none and perception of life became impaired, because you cannot see clearly through fearful eyes. Your fearful eyes are looking to the ‘what if’ in the future and they miss the beauty of the ‘what is’ right in front of you in the now.
That’s how I broke my habit of living in fear, I decided to live, to be in this life, in the now. Fear has trouble looking at the now, but you have power, you can make fear look again. I ask fear questions:
Is there an intruder in my house right now?
Is my child well and healthy?
Is there a tree falling on my house right now?
Because if it isn’t here, now needing me to act, needing me to run….I don’t need you fear. Go away and come back when there is an intruder in my house, or my child is ill and I need to worry, or the storm is so intense that my house is in peril. Because I don’t need fear unless what I fear is here….now! Come back and be my friend then.

The other thing I noticed about fear, it is a great friend to the helpless and the weak. I admire fear for that, for the way it rushes to those who feel small and meek. For those who feel there lives are out of control, fear will give them false hope. Fear loves control, it tries to take charge of all the ‘what ifs’ and all the variables.
For me fear became an uninvited house guest that stayed too long, wanted to control everything and wouldn’t leave. At first I resented fear, but then I took it by the hand, like an old, dear friend. I showed fear that I was safe when I went out, that I had a torch if it was dark and my house still stood after a storm. I showed fear that my child was safe and happy. Slowly fear loosened it’s grip. I showed fear that the angels watch over me and the universe brings me what I need, when I need it. Then I thanked fear for trying to protect me and politely explained that I am safe and strong and I want to live.
We parted the best of friends.